echoes from BayCon
2003-Jun-01, Sunday 05:37![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
texxgadgetKeith wrote. This is SO GREAT!
Heres what I told him :
When did I tell you I modeled ?
I dont mention it much, but yea, I did back when I was still young & cute.
It was fun. I didnt do a lot of print, I was a runway guy.
Im not sure anything from my modeling days exists anymore.
My portfolio was lost when the Bianca Agency went under, including
my "spares" box that had pics not included in the portfolio box.
I should find some casual stuff from that period and get them digitized.
I think your mind would be blown if you saw the pic of me with my ex at
the console of the Chicago Theatre Wurlitzer.
It was a happy time. I could turn heads by walking in a room.
I hope I was never as big a tease as you are, although I probably was.
I am definitely reaping what I have sewn.
Instead of being the heartbreaker, I am the one whos getting broken.
In the last year Ive been losing weight, but Im still not going to be able to regain that body.
At least I am not carrying my belly around in a wheelbarrow.
Martin is still alive in the Indianapolis area.
He is still a professional organist although he chain smokes now.
Ironic, I quit & he started. We havent spoken in over 10 years.
Not that there is any animosity, he has chosen to leave that part of life behind.
About 5 yrs ago, his lover decided he wanted to play the field and Martin was crushed.
There was nothing I could do for him. Our mutual friend Donna is his main lifeline.
Martin had it pretty hard. He was adopted and "came out" during college.
around the end of college, when his parents realized they could not change him, they dumped him,
thus returning him to orphan status.
Life has been pretty lousy both before and after BayCon.
The con was a nice escape from reality, but reality has returned like a vengeance.
Your return message has invoked a bittersweet emotion in me.
Im thrilled you replied.
I also realize that you are unable to feel about me the way I feel about you.
This is painful to accept. Its not your fault. You were built to a different set of blueprints.
I realize that you are (among other things) afraid I may "take you over to the dark side".
So on 1 hand I was thrilled you wrote, on the other hand having you reply and having you do so
nicely, brings a certain amount of pain.
Ill tell you more about BayCon later. Im still digesting the experience.
Heres what I told him :
When did I tell you I modeled ?
I dont mention it much, but yea, I did back when I was still young & cute.
It was fun. I didnt do a lot of print, I was a runway guy.
Im not sure anything from my modeling days exists anymore.
My portfolio was lost when the Bianca Agency went under, including
my "spares" box that had pics not included in the portfolio box.
I should find some casual stuff from that period and get them digitized.
I think your mind would be blown if you saw the pic of me with my ex at
the console of the Chicago Theatre Wurlitzer.
It was a happy time. I could turn heads by walking in a room.
I hope I was never as big a tease as you are, although I probably was.
I am definitely reaping what I have sewn.
Instead of being the heartbreaker, I am the one whos getting broken.
In the last year Ive been losing weight, but Im still not going to be able to regain that body.
At least I am not carrying my belly around in a wheelbarrow.
Martin is still alive in the Indianapolis area.
He is still a professional organist although he chain smokes now.
Ironic, I quit & he started. We havent spoken in over 10 years.
Not that there is any animosity, he has chosen to leave that part of life behind.
About 5 yrs ago, his lover decided he wanted to play the field and Martin was crushed.
There was nothing I could do for him. Our mutual friend Donna is his main lifeline.
Martin had it pretty hard. He was adopted and "came out" during college.
around the end of college, when his parents realized they could not change him, they dumped him,
thus returning him to orphan status.
Life has been pretty lousy both before and after BayCon.
The con was a nice escape from reality, but reality has returned like a vengeance.
Your return message has invoked a bittersweet emotion in me.
Im thrilled you replied.
I also realize that you are unable to feel about me the way I feel about you.
This is painful to accept. Its not your fault. You were built to a different set of blueprints.
I realize that you are (among other things) afraid I may "take you over to the dark side".
So on 1 hand I was thrilled you wrote, on the other hand having you reply and having you do so
nicely, brings a certain amount of pain.
Ill tell you more about BayCon later. Im still digesting the experience.
